Weekends were made for pigging out

And I don't mean eating a lot of food! When I say "pigging out," I mean taking lots of cock! And that's just what I've been doing this weekend. Hell, that's what I've been doing all month. But this weekend has been good to me. In fact, last night (Saturday) was so good, I can barely remember what happened on Thursday, but I'm sure I got laid then too. Haha. (Oh wait, I did. I filmed a threeway video with my buddy Greg and a hot bear we picked up at the bar in Silver Lake.) But let me tell you about last night.

It started with me sitting in my room texting on Grindr. I saw this totally hot woofy guy signed on and messaged him, and he got back to me a little while later saying that he wanted to mess around but was only in town from San Diego for one night to see a concert and wasn't sure if he would be able to make it work. I told him I'd be glad to do whatever I had to in order to have his ass in my bed fucking me hard, so we left it at that. Then I saw one of my newest fuckbuddies sign online, and I hit him up. He was a little "tipsy and horny," he said, and said he would love to fuck me again, so I went over to his place and took his big cock and load like a good little dirty pup. (I just met this guy last Wednesday night. I went over to his place and we hit it off so well that he ended up fucking me three times, the third time after I showed him my "Catching Up with a Bud" video from XTube. The resulting video, "DirtyPuppy's 3-Load Hookup," will be edited and posted soon enough.)

As soon as I left that guy's house, this other dude, a European-looking stud who lives in my neighborhood but who had yet to take me up on my offer, messaged me and said that he was up for a blowjob. So I drove home and met him on my semi-public patio and fished his cock out of his pants and started sucking away. I couldn't believe how big it got. It was a fucking monster! Unlock and thicker at the base than on the top, it kind of resembled some weird-looking yam, but boy was it hot to suck on. I really wanted him to slide it up inside me and squirt off up there, but he wouldn't bareback, so I just sucked him and ate his ass until he was ready to shoot it in my mouth. I'm pretty sure this guy will be back as well. We had a super hot time.

No sooner was my neighbor buddy gone than I received a message from the hot San Diego guy saying he was ready and willing to mess around if I would come pick him up. So I drove over to Century City and brought him back to my apartment, and we sucked and fucked until after 5am in the morning. He's usually a bottom, but he was so turned on the dirty pics I sent him that he said he wanted to breed me. That didn't actually happen, but it didn't matter. I ended up sucking him off until he came FOUR times, the second two times from me fingering his sweet butthole. The first two times he came were back to back; he shot one load into my mouth, then immediately followed with another. He was shocked. "I've never ever gotten off from a guy giving me a blowjob," he told me, echoing the sentiments of many men who have literally come before him. "That was fucking awesome." I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go over to San Diego and visit him sometime so we can film a video with him breeding my hole, so that's pretty hot. I love having fuckbuds in other cities so I can travel.

And now here it is Saturday night and I'm about to head over to Silver Lake to play another guy that I've recently started playing with. He's a short little Latin dude with a nice skinny-long cock who just loves to breed my hole in public places. We filmed a hot video in an empty parking lot recently (the video, "Parking Lot Pigs," will be posted to XTube soon), and tonight he is apartment sitting and wants to play in the building's stairwell and on the roof. Sounds pretty hot to me, so I'm looking forward to it. Hmmmm... I wonder what Sunday will bring. Stay tuned... :)

The catharsis of being a pig

So I've been making homemade movies long enough now to have gleaned a little something from it, and actually, I gotta say, it rocks. It's not about the accolades from those of you who watch it and get off on it (though don't get me wrong, I love all the attention from your emails). It's not even about validation; I learned to give that to myself in the last couple years. I think more than anything else, making these videos for XTube is an experience in personal catharsis. Truly, I've never felt more liberated and free than I do these days.

As I've explained in a few of my older posts, I grew up with my homosexuality lurking around like an uninvited guest at a Christian cotillion. There was so much fear around it, and everyone around me reacted in such negative ways, it was only natural that I would feel ashamed of who I was. This stayed with me, even after I came out (at the age of 21), for many many years, and there are moments when I still struggle with the inner demons that still lurk inside me. Sometimes when I hear someone say something derogatory about me or my sex life, I can't help but immediately feel like that little kid whose parents were telling him he was "wrong" and "sick" just for being who he was. That stuff never goes away, no matter how much work you do on yourself. Luckily, I know how to silence those voices and get on with my life. Still, so much of my adolescence and formative years were spent trying to hide my "dirty little shameful secret" from people, so much so that I built up walls around me and never let anyone into my heart for fear of them not liking what they saw. But no longer. As you can see, I've pretty much put it all out there for people to see in my XTube videos!

The great thing about it being out there is that I no longer feel like I have a dirty little secret. That's such an incredibly liberating feeling! I no longer have to sit around worrying about when people are going to discover what a dirty slut I really am. Now I can just fucking relax and be the dirty little slut that I am, with no shame and no guilt. I guess some people might say that I'm making the videos out of rebellion to what I experienced growing up, and I suppose there might be a smidgeon of truth to that. But by and large, my videos aren't created so that I can give the world a big middle finger. Honestly, I positively love making them. There is such a rush of adrenaline that comes through me as it's happening. It's just such a heady thrill. I guess in some ways it's similar to the rush that some people get using drugs, except mine isn't damaging to my body and doesn't require the use of chemicals. It's a natural high, one that makes me feel so connected to my sexuality in a way that I never have been before. There's nothing else for me to hide, so now I can just embrace it and celebrate it. It's a profoundly cathartic thing for me. People can still talk and whisper and say what they want--and they do--but the thing is, I don't care anymore. I'm totally OK with myself, and in the end that's pretty much all that matters. I've given up the shame and said goodbye to the guilt and given myself the permission to be who I am and do what makes me happy. Why didn't anybody tell me growing up how awesome this way of being could be?

I know that there will be men who are turned off by my openness--and by my promiscuity. I get to accept that and just get on with my life. There will be a man for me one day. I'm convinced of it. I'm a playful, desirable and liberated man, and I'm proud of it. How could another amazing, liberated man not want to be with me?

XTube Video RE-Posted: "A Hot Nasty Afternoon"

For those of you wondering what happened to my video "A Hot Nasty Afternoon," I've re-posted it on XTube. I got some weird message that it was in violation of some kind of copyright law, which I didn't understand, and then I researched a bit more and it appeared that somebody reported the video for scat! As if! I don't do scat. So maybe my hole wasn't the cleanest when my buddy fucked me that day, but come on, there's a fine line between a guy pulling a slightly soiled cock out of someone's ass after fucking him raw and having a guy shit all over me. I mean, right? Oh well. I've done some editing to the video at the very end in hopes that this version won't get deleted as well.

Here's the original post:

If you were a fan of my "A Hot Nasty Night" video, in which a super-hot stud comes over to my place and fucks me raw (his first time barebacking in years), then you should definitely check out my brand new video, "A Hot Nasty Afternoon."

In this follow-up to "Nasty Night," the same stud swings by my place in the afternoon and lets me suck his cock while standing in the doorway of my front door that opens to a public walkway, then bends me over my chair and fucks me while telling me that he's going to cum inside my ass. And that's just what he does, filling me up with his hot warm seed, then zipping up and heading home. It's a little shorter than most of my videos, but my fuckbud didn't have a lot of time, so this is basically a real-time video of our hot afternoon quickie. (For those who are into the really nasty stuff: There's a quick shot of me pushing his cum back out at the end, but since I wasn't as clean and fresh as I thought I was before he fucked me, I decided to keep it short and only show a quick shot of it out of respect for those fans with squeamish stomachs. LOL!)

I'm really digging this guy. He's sweet and masculine and shy, but a dirty pig on the inside, and playing with him is so much fun I am excited for hours after he leaves. We've since played two more times and made a third video (the upcoming "Another Hot Nasty Night"), and I am definitely looking forward to having loads more good times with him.

Take a look at the new video and let me know what you think, folks. More to CUM soon, so always, stay tuned. Woof woof! And here are a few more stills for ya...

The thing about bareback

So I think it's time to address the big ol' elephant in the room once and for all: the whole thing about bareback. It's an issue that's been plaguing the gay community ever since the outbreak of AIDS back in the '80s and it always gets people fired up, both emotionally and sexually. Obviously, if you've seen any of my XTube videos, you know that I'm into bareback sex. I know that I'm going to get raked over the coals for this, but personally I think it's sex in its most natural and spiritual form. It's connection between two people that literally has no barriers. In many ways, it's a metaphor for stripping away the walls that we build between us emotionally. When you let someone enter you (or you enter them) in such an intimate way, it begs for an intellectual connection that mirrors the physical one. It's actually quite funny to me that many think of bareback as "nasty," when actually, it's anything but. It's quite simply sex the way it was meant to be experienced: raw, unbridled, messy, amazing. I fucking love it.

A lot of people don't agree with me. I got into a debate with this guy the other day about whether or not my videos promote the spread of HIV. As I am not HIV positive, and nobody has ever been infected with anything during the making of any of my videos, then my opinion is that there is no way the videos are promoting the spread of anything. Of course, I acknowledge that the videos eroticize behavior that is potentially dangerous to one's sexual health, and for that, I take ownership, but if my videos send any kind of a message, it is one of personal choice. I've been having unprotected sex on and off since I was 18 years old, and in that time, I've only contracted gonorrhea three times. That's not such a bad track record. Of course, it could have been HIV, but it wasn't, and just as smokers accept the risks that come along with smoking cigarettes, I accept the risks that come along with having unprotected sex. I think it's funny how nobody ever gets up on their soap boxes to say to their smoking friends, "Do you realize that you are promoting the spread of cancer by smoking those?" But because there is so much judgment surrounding sex in this country, bareback sex becomes demonized and stigmatized as something "wrong" or "unethical." It's so very hypocritical. Sex is amazing in and of itself; there is no "bad" sex, only our personal interpretations of the sex we have. We make sex bad, but sex itself has no moral makeup.

A lot of people say things like, "But what about the 16-year-old in Ohio who sees your video on XTube and then thinks they can go out and have bareback sex?" And my response is, "What about them?" First of all, why are 16-year-olds watching porn in the first place? Second, haven't we already had this debate regarding mainstream entertainment, and haven't we already decided that musicians and filmmakers are not responsible for the things people do after listening to their music or watching their movies? Of course I care that people are still being infected with HIV, but when it all boils down to it, we are all responsible for the choices we make in life, and it is not my job to educate and police the sexual behavior of anyone but myself. Yes, I stand for sexual health, but I believe that the way I live my life is actually very responsible and healthy. I think the main reason that HIV is still such an issue in the community is that we've been going about it all wrong, teaching "safe sex only" over informed choice. Instead of telling people what NOT to do, I would much rather lead by example. I live my life the way that I want to live it, and I am fully aware of and responsible for every choice that I make, and I think that is the cornerstone of living a happy, healthy life. I have no one but myself to blame if I get HIV. Obviously I don't intend on getting it, and I've read enough about how the virus is spread to know what I can and can't get away with. If you are conscious and aware when you are having unprotected sex (as opposed to fucked up on alcohol and drugs, like most people who do it), you can actually have responsible unprotected sex. It's a matter of reading up on HIV and STDs, as well as asking questions and being honest with people. Yes, some people are liars, and yes, some people may not know they have an STD, but thre's a lot that can be accomplished by asking simple questions and paying attention to their answers (and their body language when giving those answers).

To clarify, I am in no way telling people to go out and have unsafe sex. I'm telling people, "Make up your own mind about what turns you on and what you are comfortable participating in sexually." But be informed about it. If I stand for anything, it's that we should all discard everything we've been told about sex from the church, from our families, from society, from each other. And just start over from scratch. Give yourself the permission to be who you want to be and take part in the things that you want to take part in. Let go of shame, fear, resentment, guilt and judgment, and fucking get out there and LIVE. YOUR. LIFE. We only get one, and I'll be damned if I'm going to waste mine away being overly cautious about anything. Life is about taking risks. I'm experiencing my life fully and happily, and sometimes it just makes me so giddy that I am overwhelmed with joy. Sex is part of that joy for me. Having "nasty," "dirty" sex isn't something I do because I feel "nasty" or "dirty" inside. To me, it's a way of liberating myself from such things as shame and guilt and actually celebrating what makes me happy. I am a playful, desirable, liberated man, and I LOVE my sex life. And regardless of what choices other people make regarding their sex lives, I don't think there's anything more healthy than spreading that kind of an attitude.

New XTube Video Posted: "Catching Up with a Bud"

So I've got a brand new video that I've posted to XTube today. This one is something special for me. It's called "Catching Up with a Bud," and it's a great video that captures a play session with one of my favorite fuckbuddies. As I explain in the video, this guy is someone that I've played around with a few times, but for whatever reason, he's really hard to pin down (and not just literally). We don't play that often, but when we do, it's fucking hot, and just thinking about him gets me all hard and ready to go again.

Anyway, the other night I finally caught him when he was available to play, so I went down to his place (he just lives down the street from me) and we had ourselves a hot little fuck session. It wasn't our usual marathon round (I usually get two or three loads in a row out of him), but he had to be up early and it was already after 10pm by the time I got there, but it all turned out pretty damn hot if I say so myself. He fucked me good and long, and he seemed to really get off on making a video, which he says he'd never done before. All in all, I left his place feeling pretty darn sated and seeded.

I'm hoping that he invites me over again really soon (six months is way too long to wait between fuck sessions), but until then, I have the new video and these hot stills from it to keep the memories fresh. Check out the new clip, and as always, stay tuned for more to CUM! Slurrrrppp!

An interesting night of clarity

So tonight is one of those nights where you kind of sit back and go, "Hmmmmm." I think a lot of it has to do with the transformational work that I've been part of lately, but I can definitely tell you that my life has been very "in the moment" recently. I'm "experiencing my experience" in a way that I haven't before, just being very present and in the moment and seeing what comes up. A lot of what's been "coming up" lately is really great cock, of course. And I can honestly say that doing transformational work has made my sex life a hell of a lot better. Well, when it actually happens, that is.

Tonight I had this guy over after meeting him on Grindr. He suggested he swing by after work so we could smoke pot and play around, and he was pretty adorable in his pic, so I said, "Sure." Well, he came over, but things took an interesting turn after our initial (and very hot) make-out session. We decided to smoke some pot, and well, we just started talking. And talking. And talking some more. And then it was two hours and several philosophical epiphanies later, he said, "You're going to hate me, but you've given me an awful lot to think about tonight, and I think I just want to go home and think about it all instead of having sex." I could certainly understand given the conversation we'd just had, but he was so adorable and I was pretty hot for him, so I was still pretty bummed that he decided to take his leave before I even got to taste his cock. Lucky for me, a guy that I'd been chatting with on Adam4Adam texted me shortly after the other guy left and said he wanted to hook up and get nasty. (Hmmmm, there may be something to the idea that "When one door closes, another opens" philosophy after all. LOL!)

The guy who ended up coming over was pretty damn hot, I gotta say. Tall, with a lean, athletic body and a big. fat. dick just meant for a cocksucker like me, he was just what the doctor (Dr. Pig Ken, that is) ordered. We had some super hot sex and some interesting conversation, then he fucked me for a little bit again before taking his leave. He seems like he could become a really good nasty fuckbud and a good friend, so I'd definitely like to have him come around again (and again, if I'm being totally honest). But it's just interesting how things come about, and lately I've just become such an "in the moment" kind of guy that experiences like these end up giving me such insight and clarity, if not confusion. (After all, with regard to the first guy who came over, Why wouldn't you want to sleep with a person you can engage in an eye-opening conversation with, even if it was just to say "Thank you for sharing."? I mean, really! Sheesh! LOL)

Oh well. It's all good. It will all work out as it will, so I'm just surrendering to the moment and letting myself go with the flow. I'd love for both of these dudes to come around again, but who knows how it will swing the next time I chat with them. So I'm going to bed with an enlightened smile on my face and looking forward to what tomorrow may bring. It's all good, people. It's all good.

I'll be updating this blog entry with pics from the tryst with the athletic stud, so be sure to check back to see those. Until then, stay tuned for a brand new video and some hot new stills from it later today. Stay piggy, but stay sane. Woof woof.

New XTube Video Posted: "5am BJ on the Street"

Hey folks, I'm back again. Sorry I went missing again for the past week plus. I was away for a week doing some more transformational training stuff out in the O.C. A lot of people might be really surprised to know that I'm heavily into transforma- tional stuff, but yup, that's what I'm doing when I'm not filming and posting nasty sex videos on XTube. I keep telling people that I'm a total walking contradiction, that I'm as nice as I am naughty, but everyone just keeps wanting to peg me into the "naughty" category, which is pretty much fine by me, I guess. I mean, I DO love being naughty. In fact, you can see me being my regular naughty self in a brand new video I've posted on XTube today: "5am BJ on the Street."

The video is pretty much what it says it is. This guy with a nice eight-incher contacted me via Adam4Adam really late one night (or was it early one morning?) and said he was a big fan of my XTube videos and that he would love to meet up with me and make a hot public video. He almost flaked when I responded and said, "Let's do it now," but after a little assurance that I could be over at his place within just 15 minutes, he relented and invited me over. Actually, he told me to meet him on the street outside his apartment so that we could "take a walk" and find someplace to have sex. So we just walked around the corner from his building and I dropped to my knees and started sucking him off right on the street while the paperboy was delivering papers just a half block up.

You won't see it in the video because I edited some of it out just to make it flow smoother, but we were actually interrupted, like, three times, once by a guy who just came walking right by us as I was sucking this dude's cock. But my new buddy didn't care, and neither did I. I figure that by the time someone calls the cops and they are on their way, we'll already be done and long gone. So after the guy walked on by, we continued until my early morning fuckbuddy shot his hot creamy load all over my tongue and lips. It was a pretty juicy load, as you'll see in the video.

As you folks know, I'm a total outdoor sex freak, and this video perfectly captures the "fly-by-night" mood of public sex. It also does a pretty good job of demonstrating how much I absolutely love to service a nice big dick. You'll see a big smile on my face several times as I'm sliding my mouth all over this guy's tool. I actually had to stop and start several times because the guy kept getting too close to blowing his load a few times, so by the time he finally shot, it was a nice amount of sweet cream for this pup to lap up. Ruff ruff ruff!

Hope you folks enjoy the new video as well as these stills that I'm posting from it. There's loads more to CUM soon, so stay tuned. Woof!