New XTube Video Posted: "The Holy Fuck! Flip Fuck Session"

Hey folks, just wanted to let you know about the latest video that I've posted, "The Holy Fuck! Flip Fuck Session." It's just over 12 minutes of hot nasty nastiness with this super-hot guy that I've been trying to get with from Grindr for, like, ever! For some reason, we kept missing each other, but this time we finally made it work, and all I can say is, "Holy fuck!" Hence the title of the video. In fact, this video is so hot that I'm bumping it to the front of the line, in front of all the other videos I have in the queue to be uploaded to XTube, so you don't have to wait to see it.

The Holy Fuck! Flip Fuck Session

Now this guy isn't just a sexy jock with a hot body and a big cock. No, this guy is totally fun and dirty and affectionate and adorable and just plain HAWT! He is excellent in bed (or in the bathroom, or on the patio...), and just has a way about him that makes me get a little giddy just thinking about having sex with him again. I wasn't expecting to want to fuck him as much as I did -- you guys know what a bottom I can be -- but when a guy with an ass like his comes around, you kind of need to take advantage of it. Woof.

Anyway, hope you guys like the video, and want to see more with this guy. Hopefully he'll want to come back around as well and film another one with me. Slurrrp!

Catching up with the Pup: New XTube videos, an internal shift, and more

Well, hey there folks. It's been a little while since I've posted. As I said in my previous post, I've been going through a bit of personal stuff lately. I'm not sure exactly what happened, but the stress of being unemployed for over a year, coupled with a lifetime of issues and a health scare, caught up with me recently, and I basically took time off to, um, "experience my experience." (That's transformational training lingo for living in the moment and not being beholden to one's feelings or the underlying beliefs about ourselves that no longer serve us.) During this time, I went up to San Francisco for Folsom Street Fair, filmed a trio of hot new videos, came back to L.A., got sick, thought I got HIV (but didn't), got better, and spent two weekends participating in life-changing transformational seminars that have gotten me reconnected to my inner power. It may sound like a lot of drama, and I suppose it was, though it was drama that served me. I feel tons better now and am looking forward to LESS drama moving forward. Haha.

Folsom Street Fair and San Fran Trip: I had a pretty good time in San Francisco at Folsom, though you might be shocked to know that I was a fairly tame dirty puppy while I was there. I was in the midst of my drama, so I just wasn't really feeling as slutty as I might have wanted to be, and I was only at the street fair for two hours, though I did manage to get nasty with three guys and film three new videos. One of them is with a guy I ran into at Folsom who I'd known from when he was visiting L.A. last year, one is with a guy I met on Grindr who worked on the University of California at Berkeley campus and had me meet him for a hot fuck in one of the cruisy men's rooms on campus, and one was with a hot Latin stud who fucked me in the laundry room of my friend's apartment building just before I left town to return to L.A. All in all, it was a pretty good time, though I look forward to being piggier when I go back next year. Woof.

The Pup's Transformation: As I said, I took part in some self-empowerment/transformational seminars, and have come out feeling much more confident and at ease with my choice to reveal my sex life on the Internet and with my body. I've begun the process of cutting down on all the self-judgment that I heap on myself for being who I am, and I'm going through a healing phase that is getting me back in touch with my inner child. It's a great feeling, though I've also realized that the more I've gotten OK with myself, the more I have the feeling that I'm really ready for a relationship with a really amazing, enlightened and open man who shares my thoughts on sex and love. We'll see. I'm taking applications if anyone's interested. LOL!

New XTube Videos Posted: So you may have noticed that I've posted a few new videos, or maybe you didn't In case you didn't, here's a quick run-down of what (and who) I've been up to lately:

West Hollywood Suckoff

This one is with a super-hot blond "bear" (for lack of a better word) that I met at one of the bars here in L.A. His friend was competing in the wet shorts contest at the bar, and I was kind enough to fluff his buddy before he went on stage. The hot blond bear then contacted me via Facebook a few days later and invited me over to his place, where we filmed this hot video. Hope you like it.

Topped by a Total Bottom

Although some of you may have a hard time believing that the guy in this video with me is a total bottom, I promise you: He rarely gets fucked. I've known him for many years, and knew he was a big ol' bottom, but I ran into him one day in West Hollywood and then came across him on Grindr later that night and asked if he might want to fuck me, to which he replied he would be happy to give it a shot. So I went over to his place and he fucked the crap outta me and even gave me a hot load of piss in the shower. What a great time, and totally worth the wait!

Return of the Muscle Bear

For those of you who liked my Backseat Suck 'N' Fuck video with the hot muscle bear (which has now been made public again), you're in luck, because I just posted a new one with him. It was our second time fucking. This time out, he came over to my place on his lunch break (I live just over the hill from where he works) and fucked the shit outta me (Well, not literally, thank God. Haha) and shot a hot creamy load into my mouth. We've filmed at least five more videos, so there is loads more to cum!

Quickie on the Patio

This is the most recent video, and a pretty hot one, I think. Came across this hottie on Grindr and he came over for a quick meet-and-greet, and we didn't even make it inside the door of my apartment. I just dropped to my knees and sucked him til he shot a lot juicy load onto my tongue and into my mouth. He came back again for another (and longer) go-round with me, so there will be a video of that outing eventually, but for now you can enjoy our hot first tryst. It's fun to have sex on my patio when I know my neighbors could walk out at any moment and catch us. Woof.

Anyway, that's it for now, folks. More to CUM soon. Hope you are enjoying the new vids, and I'll be back with more soon.

Woof woof ruff.
The Pup

The Pup is alive

Hey folks, just wanted to post something quick to let you know that the Pup is indeed still alive and kicking. Just been taking some time off from the computer/video thing to live my life for a spell. But don't worry, I've still made some hot new videos, and have many stockpiled right now and ready to be rolled out in the next days and weeks. Hope you keep checking back for more. Stay tuned! Woof woof!

Catching up with the Pup

Hey folks, so I've been a little lax on keeping up with this thing. I can be so lazy sometimes for someone who is so energetic when it comes to cock. LOL! Anyway, it's been a stressful week or two in some ways for me. Last Thursday night, I went out to one of the bars here in L.A. and ended up getting fucked by this totally hot guy in the bathroom, then went over to another bar and recorded some footage of the wet shorts contest they were having. I sat my camera down for a minute, and evidently one of the contestants decided that he was freaked out that I had recorded the contest, so he took off with my camera. At least that's what a couple of my friends said happened. As you can imagine, I was pretty pissed about it. Having my camera stolen was like someone ripping out my heart, especially because I was so excited about the content that was on there. Aside from the bathroom video I had just filmed, there was another video with my play buddy Jesse, who you'll be "introduced to" soon enough when I post our first video, "Parking Lot Pigs."

Anyway, I was so angry that someone stole my camera -- or, rather, angry at myself for being stupid enough to set it down somewhere -- that I ended up throwing my iPhone against a wall and breaking it. It felt good to do, but of course, I had no phone and no camera. So now a week later, I have a new iPhone (the iPhone 4, which I was going to buy anyway) and a new, even better camera. And I just went ahead and purchased a used version of the camera that was stolen so that I can now have two cameras running when I'm filming at my house. I'll have one that is stationary and doesn't move, and then one that me and the guy I'm playing with can use to get in close with. So yeah, I'm moving up a bit and getting a little more professional and hi-tech. Maybe now some of you will stop complaining about the camera moving around too much during filming. LOL.

And then the last week I've been sick with a cold, which really sucks when it's 88 degrees outside. I didn't leave my couch except to use the bathroom or check my mail for 48 hours, and have been taking it easy pretty much ever since. I feel tons better now, but I still have a stupid cough hanging on, which sucks because it makes it really hard to suck cock for very long. Haha

My friend who lets me use his Mac started back to college last week, so I've been able to use his computer this week and get some more editing ton, but it's still very hard for me to schedule a trip to his place in, and because I only have a limited amount of time to be at his place, I don't get nearly as much done as I would like. Speaking of computers, I've gotten a few donations from some admirers who want to help me get a new Mac so I can really start to make this whole operation a bit more professional and consistent. It would be great if some more would pitch in as well to the Mac campaign. I'm chatting with a couple guys in the Internet porn business about starting a website with me. Everybody keeps telling me that I should do it, but I've been resisting it because I'm not sure that I'm really ready to be "that guy." You know, the guy who has bareback sex in public. LOL. I mean, I'm already that guy on a very small level. I don't know if I'm ready to take it really big while my parents are still alive. Haha. What do you guys think? Should I start a DirtyPuppyLA website with all my videos? Would you pay $19.95 a month for a new video couple of days?

I actually took a bit of a break from hooking up at all after losing the camera. Took a few days off to regroup, but since then I've gotten back to my slutty ways and have filmed several new videos. It took me a while to get the hang of using the auto-focus on the new one, so the first few videos I made are a little out of focus. It looks kind of arty actually. LOL.

I haven't really been having a lot of sex, being sick and all, but there were a few guys last week that were really fun. Last Monday and Tuesday nights I had some pretty hot times. Last Monday I went to Slammer, the sex club in Silver Lake, and had a GREAT time. I met this one hot piggy guy and let him suck me for a while before I fucked him in one of the private stalls, then I went to the part of the club I refer to as "Blowjob Alley" (the place where all the guys stand on a platform and stick their cocks through holes for guys below to suck on) and took some piss and cum from this one hot bear daddy I'd played with a few months before. This time, though, I gave him my number. Then I hooked up again with the hot piggy guy from earlier and went home with him and spent the night. And yes, we made a video.

On Tuesday afternoon I hooked up with this one hot hairy blond guy that I've recently started playing with, then Tuesday night I got a call from the hot bear daddy I'd sucked off the night before at Slammer. He asked me to come over to his place and get him off, and I was only too happy to oblige. He fed me some more piss and cum then sent me on my way. I ended up over at the Eagle, where I met this hot older daddy who came home with me and fucked me real nice and sweet-like. And yeah, I got videos from all three of those hookups.

I haven't had much sex since then, but last night I did go out to La Hambra to FINALLY hook up with this hottie I've been messaging for about two months. He wasn't into making video, but he sure did feed one nice big huge load to my hungry hole. When I got home and pushed it out, it was like a fucking river was gushing out of me. It was sooooo hot. I'm gonna try and get him to let me film it next time for sure.

I posted a new video today, in case you haven't seen it yet. It's called "Parking Lot Pigs," and it's a really hot quickie video where this cute Latin kid (he's only 20 years old!) gives me two loads while we're playing in an empty parking lot out by his house. He was so turned on that he came within, like, 40 seconds after I started sucking his dick, and then he fucks me and comes within a minute! LOL! Luckily, we've played several times since then and he's been able to last much much longer. He's like me, really turned on by having sex in public places, so we get along really well.

Anyway, folks, that's it for me for today. I need to go get some more medicine so I can get rid of this nasty cold. Until next time, check out the new video and stay turned for more... Woof woof from the Puppy.

New XTube Video Posted: "Getting Nasty with Chad"

Hey there, folks! Got another hot new video for ya. It's freshly posted to my XTube page, and it's a doozie! I met this guy on Grindr, and we talked about getting together for a while before it finally happened, but when it did, it was hot as fuck. This guy was a nasty fucker via text, and he said he couldn't wait to come over and fuck my hole real good. And that's just what he did. The results, which I call "Getting Nasty with Chad," are quite fun to watch. At least I think so.

This hookup session started the same way many recent ones has, with Chad showing up to my place to find me waiting for him on my knees inside the doorway to my apartment in Hollywood. He unzipped and fed his cock to me, then took me into the bathroom so he could feed his piss to me. It wasn't the tastiest piss, I have to say, so I don't actually drink any of it, but I really enjoyed feeling its warmth stream over me before I continue sucking his cock. This guy has a really nice dick as you'll see: big, not real fat, but a perfect girth for sucking and fucking.

I didn't realize that my camera's zoom had been activated, so in most of the first part of the video the whole picture is not included in the frame. You see a lot of my mouth and his cock only. But later on we fixed that, just in time for the fucking. This guy really got off on sticking his dick in and out of my hole and watching it go in and out, and he was pretty verbal, which I really appreciated. He fucked me good and hard, and fed me a nice sweet and creamy load. Which I DEFINITELY appreciated. Haha.

Anyway, I've since lost touch with this guy. He kept talking about how much he wanted to come back over and do it again, but he's since disappeared on Grindr, so who knows if I'll ever see him again. You know how it goes with hot tricks. But I'd love another round with him. Until then, enjoy the video of our one and only hookup thus far. I hope you'll like it as much as I did. Stay tuned...

New XTube Video Posted: "Middle Eastern Delight"

So I was able to use my friend's Mac this weekend while he was away for two days, and I was able to get a few new videos edited. One of them is my latest XTube upload, "Middle Eastern Delight," an especially hot video that I filmed with this guy I met on Grindr. This guy has a very interesting look, and when we chatted online, it was evident from the get-go that he was as "adventurous" and "nasty" as I am, so we made a date to hook up later that night.

When he got here, however, I wasn't ready (don't you just hate when tricks are early? LOL!). I was still getting "cleaned up" (read: douching), so he sat down in his car and waited until I texted him and told him to come on up. As soon as he got here, we were getting naked and getting down to business. His pubes had that sweet scent that so many Middle Eastern guys have, and it was really hot to bury my nose in them while I was sucking him. He turned out to be pretty much a man of his word as well, feeding his raw cock to me and slamming it home with intent and purpose. (Someone asked me why I didn't let him come in my ass. I go through these phases where I want guys to shoot it in my mouth instead of in my ass, and this was during one of those phases.)

Anyway, a sweaty-hot good time was had by all (or rather, both), and we've already talked about getting together again and shooting a bunch of other videos together. We'll see if that pans out (I'm definitely up for it with him), but until then, this video should keep you folks happy for a few days... until I post my next one. I'm trying to get as many videos as possible done because I don't know when I'll have access to my friend's computer again, so hopefully I'll get a bunch done before my buddy returns from his mini-vacay. (You can also help me get my own computer by donating to my Mac Fundraising Campaign.)

At any rate, enjoy the new vid and stay tuned for more...

DirtyPuppyLA's Mac computer fundraising drive!

OK, folks, a lot of you have been asking why I haven't posted any new videos in a week or so. So here's the deal. I need a new computer with editing software. My Dell PC is on its last legs, and cannot handle anymore software running on it. It runs so slow sometimes I am often tempted to pick it up and hurl it across the room, but then I wouldn't be able to cruise Manhunt and Adam4Adam trolling for cock. But anyway, I have over 40 videos that are waiting to be edited and uploaded to XTube, but I can't do anything with them because I just don't have the capability.

I've been using my good friend's Mac with Final Cut Pro software, but I've only been able to use it whenever he's not home using it himself. And he's always home! I just really need a new computer. I'm happy buying a refurbished computer, but it needs to happen soon. It's getting to the point where I'm a bit overwhelmed by all the videos I have piling up. And I just know that you guys want to see what I've been up to the last few months. I'm telling you, I've got some fucking HOT HOT HOT videos on the way. Some of the hottest I've ever filmed, including follow-ups to "Afternoon Delight" and "A Hot Nasty Night," plus a super-hot one that I call "Dirty Puppy's 3-Load Hookup," which is just what it sounds like: me milking three hot creamy loads out of a hot new play buddy.

I'm really dying to get these videos edited and uploaded to the site for you, but I simply can't do it with the facilities that I have, so I have created a PayPal account that my fans can donate to so that I can go out and buy a new iMac computer and the Final Cut Pro editing suite. I've been looking at some refurbished Macs and the Final Cut software on Amazon, and I estimate both to cost roughly $2,500, so it might take a while before I reach my goal, but I will be building this money up in my savings account until I am able to afford the new computer. Why don't I just put it on a credit card or take out a loan, you ask? Because I don't have a credit card, first of all, and secondly, I have terrible credit. And because I'm unemployed right now with no job in sight, I'm very strapped for income.

Just in case you are thinking, "Wow, this guy is full of himself to ask people to buy him a new computer during a recession" (as somebody said in one of the comments below), I'll point out that it is quite common among filmmakers, artists, musicians and porn stars to start fundraising campaigns to complete their projects or start their own businesses. It's done on Kickstarter.com all the time. (I would have used Kickstarter for this campaign, but they keep a percentage of the funds donated.) I want to make it clear, however, that I'm not just asking for handouts here. I wouldn't dream of asking people for donations if I'm not willing to give something back. So with that in mind, I've created a few rewards for those of you who contribute to the cause. I tried to come up with rewards that I thought my admirers might want from me. Check them out below, figure out how much you want to donate, and then click here to donate to the cause! My email address to send funds to is coltspencer1@aol.com.

DONATION REWARDS

Tier 1 ($10-$49) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA, Volume 1, featuring 10 of my personal favorite XTube videos.

Tier 2 ($50-$99) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA Vol. 1, plus your choice of a jockstrap, underwear or socks worn by me for however many days you would like me to wear them.

Tier 3 ($100-$199) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA Vol. 1, your choice of jockstrap, underwear or socks worn by me, PLUS I will film a video of myself shooting a load on whichever item of clothing you choose and send you a copy of that.

Tier 4 ($200-$399) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA Vol. 1, your choice of jockstrap, underwear or socks to be used for a filmed jerkoff session just for you, PLUS a personal 15-minute phone call from me to talk about anything you want.

Tier 5 ($400-$499) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA Vol. 1, your choice of jockstrap, underwear or socks used for a filmed jerkoff session just for you, a personal 30-minute phone call from me, PLUS I will make a brand new XTube video of the fantasy of your choosing (within certain limits, of course: no blood, no scat, nothing too illegal, etc.). You tell me what you want to see me doing, and I will do it for you and give you a shout-out in my introduction to the video.

Tier 6 ($500 or more) - A signed DVD copy of The Best of DirtyPuppyLA Vol. 1, your choice of jockstrap, underwear or socks used for a filmed jerkoff session just for you, a personal 30-minute phone call from me, a brand new XTube video made from your fantasy (see Tier 5 for details), PLUS copies of all future DirtyPuppy DVD releases (including the upcoming compilations DirtyPuppyLA: The Public Sex Tapes and DirtyPuppyLA: Give This Dog a Bone), AND personal emails from me to let you know every time a new video is being uploaded to XTube.

When pigs sell out

So I got this text today from a guy I met on Grindr. "Prop 8 was just ruled unconstitutional! Now it honestly makes me want to stop fucking around and meet someone worth possibly marrying someday." As soon as I swallowed the vomit that had arisen in the back of my mouth, I sent him a text back saying, "Oh please! Don't be such a fucking girl! Today is a victory for civil rights, not for monogamy! LOL!"

God, I hate how gays give in to traditional societal teachings about what constitutes an "appropriate" relationship. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be in a relationship (trust me, I would like to have one someday, too), but there is nothing more sad than people giving in to others' ideas about what kind of relationship they "should" have. But we do it all the time. We meet someone and we immediately begin to judge ourselves. "Now this means I have to stop being such a pig and really focus all my attention on making this relationship work." But that's actually the very reason why relationships don't work out: As soon as we begin to judge our pasts and our choices and attempt to re-cast ourselves as good" guys to make a relationship work, we begin the journey toward the failure of the relationship. Why do so many of us want out partners to love an idealized version of ourselves that isn't who we really are? And when will we stop judging our own sexual desires to the point that we deny them in favor of love? Why not have a relationship in which our sexual desires are an accepted and encouraged part of it?

I just don't understand why people fall prey to the bullshit that we've been taught about sex and relationships. Especially gay people. Aren't we supposed to be more sexually open and evolved? But I'm not seeing that in the gay community at all. I'm seeing gay men schilling for acceptance and validation by getting into relationships that will never work out because they are built on false premises, and it's just so very saddening to me. The fact that Prop 8 has been overtuned in the California court today is indeed a victory, but like I told my friend, it is a victory for equality and civil rights only, and does not mean in any way that we need to run out and become "good boys" so we can find husbands now. We still get to be the same dirty, piggy guys that we are, day in, day out, without making ourselves feel like we are any less deserving of love or a committed relationship. I will never try to remake myself in the image of what somebody else finds acceptable, and neither should anybody else.

Prop 8 may have been overturned today, but the true victory is for anyone who stands for who they are and believes themselves to be equal because of it. I'm a pig, I'm equal to everyone else, and I deserve everything that I want in life. That's what equality is all about, people. Please get with the fucking program, people.

Getting back in the game

Hey folks, it's me again, your friendly neighborhood dirty puppy. It's funny how I go through these phases where I want to update this blog every day and then I just don't want to touch it for several. I'm just one of those people who hates being tied down to any sort of responsibility, even if it's just a blog posting. I hate that about myself on one hand, because it's really hard to keep a steady job where I have a boss, but on the other hand, living on my own terms is really awesome for me. I guess that's why I get to start my own business and do things my way all the time, right?

I've actually been approached by someone on XTube. He's some business major in college and wants to help me start an Internet porn site built around me. I've been thinking about such a thing for quite a while, but I just don't have the money or the manpower to do it on my own. It would be interesting if this guy turned out to be legit and we got something off the ground together. One never knows. Either way, I'm happy just doing things the way I've been doing them, and offering the videos for free. Somehow it makes me feel more honest. I don't really think that people should have to pay to get off, and I like being able to bring lots of pleasure to people out of the kindness of my heart (and the pigginess of my libido). But then again, if I could make a living off of doing what I love, then hey, all bets are off. LOL!

I've actually posted two new videos to XTube recently. One, "Another Outdoor Suck Session," is a hot little vid that I filmed with this hot guy who was in town visiting from San Francisco. We drove into one of the uppity neighborhoods of L.A. and I sucked him off on the street. He actually blew me as well, but it was so dark that when I filmed him sucking me, you couldn't see any of it. I considered not posting the video at all, but because the first part of it is really hot (there's a lot of hot cocksucking on my part, I have to admit, as well as some sexy whispering) I figured, Why not? It'll be hot to a lot of people. We filmed another video the very next night, and this time we filmed it at the house of the friends he was staying with. That one will be posted eventually, so stay tuned. In the meantime, check out "Another Outdoor Suck Session" and let me know what you think.

The other video, "Fucked by an Asian Stud," was up for a day before the guy who appeared in it with me asked me to delete it because he'd been recognized by a friend. I'm going to try re-editing it so that his identity is obscured even more, and I'll re-post it in a public form, but until then, you can get the PIN for the video by emailing me and asking for it. I know it's frustrating for you folks when videos that were public suddenly become private, but when you're dealing with regular guys who aren't paid pornstars, you run into a lot of walls when it comes to their privacy issues. Personally I think we should all be able to do whatever we want without fear of getting in trouble, but we don't live in that kind of a world, which truly sucks. LOL!

Anyway, I've been having TONS of hot nasty sex lately. Ever since I did that sexuality workshop a couple months back, I've really been much more comfortable in my own skin, much more confident of the playful, desirable, liberated man that I am. I think it's coming across not only in my videos, but also just in my interactions with men on and off the hookup sites. Now that I'm so upfront about what I want, I seem to get it a lot more regularly. Imagine that! What a concept! I still run into a lot of guys who are intimidated by me, but that's to be expected when dealing with people who buy into society's sexual B.S. Oh well. What can you do but smile, feel sorry for them and move on? Right!?

The great thing about having so much sex is that I have a TON of new videos to edit and upload. The bad thing about that is that I don't have regular access to editing software and a computer than can handle it. I've been leaning on a friend who has a Mac with Final Cut Pro installed, but I can only use his computer when he's not home, and because it's summer and he doesn't return to school until next month, I haven't really been able to do a lot of editing. The result is that I've got over 40 videos waiting to be edited and uploaded. I really need a Mac with Final Cut Pro, but since I'm unemployed, I won't be able to afford one anytime soon. Hmmm, maybe I should start a PayPal account where all my fans could donate to the cause? After seeing what the girl on The United States of Tara did by pimping herself out to guys on the Internet, perhaps I could so something similar. It's an idea...

Oh well, I need to get ready for a dinner date with a friend, so I must run. Hugs, kisses and sloppy blowjobs to all of you. Stay tuned for more videos eventually.

Weekends were made for pigging out

And I don't mean eating a lot of food! When I say "pigging out," I mean taking lots of cock! And that's just what I've been doing this weekend. Hell, that's what I've been doing all month. But this weekend has been good to me. In fact, last night (Saturday) was so good, I can barely remember what happened on Thursday, but I'm sure I got laid then too. Haha. (Oh wait, I did. I filmed a threeway video with my buddy Greg and a hot bear we picked up at the bar in Silver Lake.) But let me tell you about last night.

It started with me sitting in my room texting on Grindr. I saw this totally hot woofy guy signed on and messaged him, and he got back to me a little while later saying that he wanted to mess around but was only in town from San Diego for one night to see a concert and wasn't sure if he would be able to make it work. I told him I'd be glad to do whatever I had to in order to have his ass in my bed fucking me hard, so we left it at that. Then I saw one of my newest fuckbuddies sign online, and I hit him up. He was a little "tipsy and horny," he said, and said he would love to fuck me again, so I went over to his place and took his big cock and load like a good little dirty pup. (I just met this guy last Wednesday night. I went over to his place and we hit it off so well that he ended up fucking me three times, the third time after I showed him my "Catching Up with a Bud" video from XTube. The resulting video, "DirtyPuppy's 3-Load Hookup," will be edited and posted soon enough.)

As soon as I left that guy's house, this other dude, a European-looking stud who lives in my neighborhood but who had yet to take me up on my offer, messaged me and said that he was up for a blowjob. So I drove home and met him on my semi-public patio and fished his cock out of his pants and started sucking away. I couldn't believe how big it got. It was a fucking monster! Unlock and thicker at the base than on the top, it kind of resembled some weird-looking yam, but boy was it hot to suck on. I really wanted him to slide it up inside me and squirt off up there, but he wouldn't bareback, so I just sucked him and ate his ass until he was ready to shoot it in my mouth. I'm pretty sure this guy will be back as well. We had a super hot time.

No sooner was my neighbor buddy gone than I received a message from the hot San Diego guy saying he was ready and willing to mess around if I would come pick him up. So I drove over to Century City and brought him back to my apartment, and we sucked and fucked until after 5am in the morning. He's usually a bottom, but he was so turned on the dirty pics I sent him that he said he wanted to breed me. That didn't actually happen, but it didn't matter. I ended up sucking him off until he came FOUR times, the second two times from me fingering his sweet butthole. The first two times he came were back to back; he shot one load into my mouth, then immediately followed with another. He was shocked. "I've never ever gotten off from a guy giving me a blowjob," he told me, echoing the sentiments of many men who have literally come before him. "That was fucking awesome." I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go over to San Diego and visit him sometime so we can film a video with him breeding my hole, so that's pretty hot. I love having fuckbuds in other cities so I can travel.

And now here it is Saturday night and I'm about to head over to Silver Lake to play another guy that I've recently started playing with. He's a short little Latin dude with a nice skinny-long cock who just loves to breed my hole in public places. We filmed a hot video in an empty parking lot recently (the video, "Parking Lot Pigs," will be posted to XTube soon), and tonight he is apartment sitting and wants to play in the building's stairwell and on the roof. Sounds pretty hot to me, so I'm looking forward to it. Hmmmm... I wonder what Sunday will bring. Stay tuned... :)

The catharsis of being a pig

So I've been making homemade movies long enough now to have gleaned a little something from it, and actually, I gotta say, it rocks. It's not about the accolades from those of you who watch it and get off on it (though don't get me wrong, I love all the attention from your emails). It's not even about validation; I learned to give that to myself in the last couple years. I think more than anything else, making these videos for XTube is an experience in personal catharsis. Truly, I've never felt more liberated and free than I do these days.

As I've explained in a few of my older posts, I grew up with my homosexuality lurking around like an uninvited guest at a Christian cotillion. There was so much fear around it, and everyone around me reacted in such negative ways, it was only natural that I would feel ashamed of who I was. This stayed with me, even after I came out (at the age of 21), for many many years, and there are moments when I still struggle with the inner demons that still lurk inside me. Sometimes when I hear someone say something derogatory about me or my sex life, I can't help but immediately feel like that little kid whose parents were telling him he was "wrong" and "sick" just for being who he was. That stuff never goes away, no matter how much work you do on yourself. Luckily, I know how to silence those voices and get on with my life. Still, so much of my adolescence and formative years were spent trying to hide my "dirty little shameful secret" from people, so much so that I built up walls around me and never let anyone into my heart for fear of them not liking what they saw. But no longer. As you can see, I've pretty much put it all out there for people to see in my XTube videos!

The great thing about it being out there is that I no longer feel like I have a dirty little secret. That's such an incredibly liberating feeling! I no longer have to sit around worrying about when people are going to discover what a dirty slut I really am. Now I can just fucking relax and be the dirty little slut that I am, with no shame and no guilt. I guess some people might say that I'm making the videos out of rebellion to what I experienced growing up, and I suppose there might be a smidgeon of truth to that. But by and large, my videos aren't created so that I can give the world a big middle finger. Honestly, I positively love making them. There is such a rush of adrenaline that comes through me as it's happening. It's just such a heady thrill. I guess in some ways it's similar to the rush that some people get using drugs, except mine isn't damaging to my body and doesn't require the use of chemicals. It's a natural high, one that makes me feel so connected to my sexuality in a way that I never have been before. There's nothing else for me to hide, so now I can just embrace it and celebrate it. It's a profoundly cathartic thing for me. People can still talk and whisper and say what they want--and they do--but the thing is, I don't care anymore. I'm totally OK with myself, and in the end that's pretty much all that matters. I've given up the shame and said goodbye to the guilt and given myself the permission to be who I am and do what makes me happy. Why didn't anybody tell me growing up how awesome this way of being could be?

I know that there will be men who are turned off by my openness--and by my promiscuity. I get to accept that and just get on with my life. There will be a man for me one day. I'm convinced of it. I'm a playful, desirable and liberated man, and I'm proud of it. How could another amazing, liberated man not want to be with me?

XTube Video RE-Posted: "A Hot Nasty Afternoon"

For those of you wondering what happened to my video "A Hot Nasty Afternoon," I've re-posted it on XTube. I got some weird message that it was in violation of some kind of copyright law, which I didn't understand, and then I researched a bit more and it appeared that somebody reported the video for scat! As if! I don't do scat. So maybe my hole wasn't the cleanest when my buddy fucked me that day, but come on, there's a fine line between a guy pulling a slightly soiled cock out of someone's ass after fucking him raw and having a guy shit all over me. I mean, right? Oh well. I've done some editing to the video at the very end in hopes that this version won't get deleted as well.

Here's the original post:

If you were a fan of my "A Hot Nasty Night" video, in which a super-hot stud comes over to my place and fucks me raw (his first time barebacking in years), then you should definitely check out my brand new video, "A Hot Nasty Afternoon."

In this follow-up to "Nasty Night," the same stud swings by my place in the afternoon and lets me suck his cock while standing in the doorway of my front door that opens to a public walkway, then bends me over my chair and fucks me while telling me that he's going to cum inside my ass. And that's just what he does, filling me up with his hot warm seed, then zipping up and heading home. It's a little shorter than most of my videos, but my fuckbud didn't have a lot of time, so this is basically a real-time video of our hot afternoon quickie. (For those who are into the really nasty stuff: There's a quick shot of me pushing his cum back out at the end, but since I wasn't as clean and fresh as I thought I was before he fucked me, I decided to keep it short and only show a quick shot of it out of respect for those fans with squeamish stomachs. LOL!)

I'm really digging this guy. He's sweet and masculine and shy, but a dirty pig on the inside, and playing with him is so much fun I am excited for hours after he leaves. We've since played two more times and made a third video (the upcoming "Another Hot Nasty Night"), and I am definitely looking forward to having loads more good times with him.

Take a look at the new video and let me know what you think, folks. More to CUM soon, so always, stay tuned. Woof woof! And here are a few more stills for ya...

The thing about bareback

So I think it's time to address the big ol' elephant in the room once and for all: the whole thing about bareback. It's an issue that's been plaguing the gay community ever since the outbreak of AIDS back in the '80s and it always gets people fired up, both emotionally and sexually. Obviously, if you've seen any of my XTube videos, you know that I'm into bareback sex. I know that I'm going to get raked over the coals for this, but personally I think it's sex in its most natural and spiritual form. It's connection between two people that literally has no barriers. In many ways, it's a metaphor for stripping away the walls that we build between us emotionally. When you let someone enter you (or you enter them) in such an intimate way, it begs for an intellectual connection that mirrors the physical one. It's actually quite funny to me that many think of bareback as "nasty," when actually, it's anything but. It's quite simply sex the way it was meant to be experienced: raw, unbridled, messy, amazing. I fucking love it.

A lot of people don't agree with me. I got into a debate with this guy the other day about whether or not my videos promote the spread of HIV. As I am not HIV positive, and nobody has ever been infected with anything during the making of any of my videos, then my opinion is that there is no way the videos are promoting the spread of anything. Of course, I acknowledge that the videos eroticize behavior that is potentially dangerous to one's sexual health, and for that, I take ownership, but if my videos send any kind of a message, it is one of personal choice. I've been having unprotected sex on and off since I was 18 years old, and in that time, I've only contracted gonorrhea three times. That's not such a bad track record. Of course, it could have been HIV, but it wasn't, and just as smokers accept the risks that come along with smoking cigarettes, I accept the risks that come along with having unprotected sex. I think it's funny how nobody ever gets up on their soap boxes to say to their smoking friends, "Do you realize that you are promoting the spread of cancer by smoking those?" But because there is so much judgment surrounding sex in this country, bareback sex becomes demonized and stigmatized as something "wrong" or "unethical." It's so very hypocritical. Sex is amazing in and of itself; there is no "bad" sex, only our personal interpretations of the sex we have. We make sex bad, but sex itself has no moral makeup.

A lot of people say things like, "But what about the 16-year-old in Ohio who sees your video on XTube and then thinks they can go out and have bareback sex?" And my response is, "What about them?" First of all, why are 16-year-olds watching porn in the first place? Second, haven't we already had this debate regarding mainstream entertainment, and haven't we already decided that musicians and filmmakers are not responsible for the things people do after listening to their music or watching their movies? Of course I care that people are still being infected with HIV, but when it all boils down to it, we are all responsible for the choices we make in life, and it is not my job to educate and police the sexual behavior of anyone but myself. Yes, I stand for sexual health, but I believe that the way I live my life is actually very responsible and healthy. I think the main reason that HIV is still such an issue in the community is that we've been going about it all wrong, teaching "safe sex only" over informed choice. Instead of telling people what NOT to do, I would much rather lead by example. I live my life the way that I want to live it, and I am fully aware of and responsible for every choice that I make, and I think that is the cornerstone of living a happy, healthy life. I have no one but myself to blame if I get HIV. Obviously I don't intend on getting it, and I've read enough about how the virus is spread to know what I can and can't get away with. If you are conscious and aware when you are having unprotected sex (as opposed to fucked up on alcohol and drugs, like most people who do it), you can actually have responsible unprotected sex. It's a matter of reading up on HIV and STDs, as well as asking questions and being honest with people. Yes, some people are liars, and yes, some people may not know they have an STD, but thre's a lot that can be accomplished by asking simple questions and paying attention to their answers (and their body language when giving those answers).

To clarify, I am in no way telling people to go out and have unsafe sex. I'm telling people, "Make up your own mind about what turns you on and what you are comfortable participating in sexually." But be informed about it. If I stand for anything, it's that we should all discard everything we've been told about sex from the church, from our families, from society, from each other. And just start over from scratch. Give yourself the permission to be who you want to be and take part in the things that you want to take part in. Let go of shame, fear, resentment, guilt and judgment, and fucking get out there and LIVE. YOUR. LIFE. We only get one, and I'll be damned if I'm going to waste mine away being overly cautious about anything. Life is about taking risks. I'm experiencing my life fully and happily, and sometimes it just makes me so giddy that I am overwhelmed with joy. Sex is part of that joy for me. Having "nasty," "dirty" sex isn't something I do because I feel "nasty" or "dirty" inside. To me, it's a way of liberating myself from such things as shame and guilt and actually celebrating what makes me happy. I am a playful, desirable, liberated man, and I LOVE my sex life. And regardless of what choices other people make regarding their sex lives, I don't think there's anything more healthy than spreading that kind of an attitude.

New XTube Video Posted: "Catching Up with a Bud"

So I've got a brand new video that I've posted to XTube today. This one is something special for me. It's called "Catching Up with a Bud," and it's a great video that captures a play session with one of my favorite fuckbuddies. As I explain in the video, this guy is someone that I've played around with a few times, but for whatever reason, he's really hard to pin down (and not just literally). We don't play that often, but when we do, it's fucking hot, and just thinking about him gets me all hard and ready to go again.

Anyway, the other night I finally caught him when he was available to play, so I went down to his place (he just lives down the street from me) and we had ourselves a hot little fuck session. It wasn't our usual marathon round (I usually get two or three loads in a row out of him), but he had to be up early and it was already after 10pm by the time I got there, but it all turned out pretty damn hot if I say so myself. He fucked me good and long, and he seemed to really get off on making a video, which he says he'd never done before. All in all, I left his place feeling pretty darn sated and seeded.

I'm hoping that he invites me over again really soon (six months is way too long to wait between fuck sessions), but until then, I have the new video and these hot stills from it to keep the memories fresh. Check out the new clip, and as always, stay tuned for more to CUM! Slurrrrppp!

An interesting night of clarity

So tonight is one of those nights where you kind of sit back and go, "Hmmmmm." I think a lot of it has to do with the transformational work that I've been part of lately, but I can definitely tell you that my life has been very "in the moment" recently. I'm "experiencing my experience" in a way that I haven't before, just being very present and in the moment and seeing what comes up. A lot of what's been "coming up" lately is really great cock, of course. And I can honestly say that doing transformational work has made my sex life a hell of a lot better. Well, when it actually happens, that is.

Tonight I had this guy over after meeting him on Grindr. He suggested he swing by after work so we could smoke pot and play around, and he was pretty adorable in his pic, so I said, "Sure." Well, he came over, but things took an interesting turn after our initial (and very hot) make-out session. We decided to smoke some pot, and well, we just started talking. And talking. And talking some more. And then it was two hours and several philosophical epiphanies later, he said, "You're going to hate me, but you've given me an awful lot to think about tonight, and I think I just want to go home and think about it all instead of having sex." I could certainly understand given the conversation we'd just had, but he was so adorable and I was pretty hot for him, so I was still pretty bummed that he decided to take his leave before I even got to taste his cock. Lucky for me, a guy that I'd been chatting with on Adam4Adam texted me shortly after the other guy left and said he wanted to hook up and get nasty. (Hmmmm, there may be something to the idea that "When one door closes, another opens" philosophy after all. LOL!)

The guy who ended up coming over was pretty damn hot, I gotta say. Tall, with a lean, athletic body and a big. fat. dick just meant for a cocksucker like me, he was just what the doctor (Dr. Pig Ken, that is) ordered. We had some super hot sex and some interesting conversation, then he fucked me for a little bit again before taking his leave. He seems like he could become a really good nasty fuckbud and a good friend, so I'd definitely like to have him come around again (and again, if I'm being totally honest). But it's just interesting how things come about, and lately I've just become such an "in the moment" kind of guy that experiences like these end up giving me such insight and clarity, if not confusion. (After all, with regard to the first guy who came over, Why wouldn't you want to sleep with a person you can engage in an eye-opening conversation with, even if it was just to say "Thank you for sharing."? I mean, really! Sheesh! LOL)

Oh well. It's all good. It will all work out as it will, so I'm just surrendering to the moment and letting myself go with the flow. I'd love for both of these dudes to come around again, but who knows how it will swing the next time I chat with them. So I'm going to bed with an enlightened smile on my face and looking forward to what tomorrow may bring. It's all good, people. It's all good.

I'll be updating this blog entry with pics from the tryst with the athletic stud, so be sure to check back to see those. Until then, stay tuned for a brand new video and some hot new stills from it later today. Stay piggy, but stay sane. Woof woof.

New XTube Video Posted: "5am BJ on the Street"

Hey folks, I'm back again. Sorry I went missing again for the past week plus. I was away for a week doing some more transformational training stuff out in the O.C. A lot of people might be really surprised to know that I'm heavily into transforma- tional stuff, but yup, that's what I'm doing when I'm not filming and posting nasty sex videos on XTube. I keep telling people that I'm a total walking contradiction, that I'm as nice as I am naughty, but everyone just keeps wanting to peg me into the "naughty" category, which is pretty much fine by me, I guess. I mean, I DO love being naughty. In fact, you can see me being my regular naughty self in a brand new video I've posted on XTube today: "5am BJ on the Street."

The video is pretty much what it says it is. This guy with a nice eight-incher contacted me via Adam4Adam really late one night (or was it early one morning?) and said he was a big fan of my XTube videos and that he would love to meet up with me and make a hot public video. He almost flaked when I responded and said, "Let's do it now," but after a little assurance that I could be over at his place within just 15 minutes, he relented and invited me over. Actually, he told me to meet him on the street outside his apartment so that we could "take a walk" and find someplace to have sex. So we just walked around the corner from his building and I dropped to my knees and started sucking him off right on the street while the paperboy was delivering papers just a half block up.

You won't see it in the video because I edited some of it out just to make it flow smoother, but we were actually interrupted, like, three times, once by a guy who just came walking right by us as I was sucking this dude's cock. But my new buddy didn't care, and neither did I. I figure that by the time someone calls the cops and they are on their way, we'll already be done and long gone. So after the guy walked on by, we continued until my early morning fuckbuddy shot his hot creamy load all over my tongue and lips. It was a pretty juicy load, as you'll see in the video.

As you folks know, I'm a total outdoor sex freak, and this video perfectly captures the "fly-by-night" mood of public sex. It also does a pretty good job of demonstrating how much I absolutely love to service a nice big dick. You'll see a big smile on my face several times as I'm sliding my mouth all over this guy's tool. I actually had to stop and start several times because the guy kept getting too close to blowing his load a few times, so by the time he finally shot, it was a nice amount of sweet cream for this pup to lap up. Ruff ruff ruff!

Hope you folks enjoy the new video as well as these stills that I'm posting from it. There's loads more to CUM soon, so stay tuned. Woof!

Paranoia sucks

So today I had a super fucking hot hookup where this big-dicked guy came over and stood in the doorway of my apartment and fed his thick veiny cock to me. I took it like a champ, and the video was probably one of the hottest I've filmed in a while. Except that now there is no video. This asshole decided to take it up on himself to delete the footage from my camera when I wasn't looking. What a fuck tard! You can bet that I sent his ass a very pointed text after he left. Can you believe that shit?

That he would just start deleting shit off my camera without discussing it with me is complete bullshit. It wasn't even like anyone would have ever figured out whose cock I was sucking from the video. It never went anywhere above his belly button. And he had no distinguishing tattoos. He was just another stupid paranoid asshole gay guy in the world, and I'm telling you folks, there are just too fucking many of them. What the hell is up with this whole "D.L." thing going on in our community? I hear it all the time. "I just don't like people knowing my business." And I just want to ask: Uh... Why? I thought one of the great things about being gay was that we could be open about who we are without the fear of judgment. But it just seems as if everyone is so concerned about what others think about them these days that they refuse to allow themselves to have any fun, or if they do, it has to be in secret. I see it everywhere. Guys refuse to send their G-rated face pics on Manhunt out of fear that they could end up in the wrong hands. (Just what kind of damage do these guys think that these so-called Internet predators can do with a fucking G-rated picture anyway???) Or they won't hook up with friends of mutual friends because they don't want their friends knowing who they sleep with. Honestly, who fucking cares?

Now I know that I live a very out-there lifestyle, and I understand that not everybody wants to be so open about themselves because it could get back to their families or their bosses. But really, people, this incessant paranoia that is running rampant in our community is fucking LAME. It's time for all of us to just get over ourselves already! I'm sorry, but it needs to be said: Discretion is for people who spend too much time worrying about what others think about them. And as I've said before, there is no greater deterrent to happiness than caring about what others think about you. But let's be totally honest: It's usually not our friends that are judging us. It's ourselves. And until we all come clean with ourselves about who we are and what we like to do in bed, then this kind of stupid "D.L." shit is going to continue. And again, I'm sorry, but there is absolutely nothing sexy about shame, guilt, fear or especially paranoia.