Paranoia sucks

So today I had a super fucking hot hookup where this big-dicked guy came over and stood in the doorway of my apartment and fed his thick veiny cock to me. I took it like a champ, and the video was probably one of the hottest I've filmed in a while. Except that now there is no video. This asshole decided to take it up on himself to delete the footage from my camera when I wasn't looking. What a fuck tard! You can bet that I sent his ass a very pointed text after he left. Can you believe that shit?

That he would just start deleting shit off my camera without discussing it with me is complete bullshit. It wasn't even like anyone would have ever figured out whose cock I was sucking from the video. It never went anywhere above his belly button. And he had no distinguishing tattoos. He was just another stupid paranoid asshole gay guy in the world, and I'm telling you folks, there are just too fucking many of them. What the hell is up with this whole "D.L." thing going on in our community? I hear it all the time. "I just don't like people knowing my business." And I just want to ask: Uh... Why? I thought one of the great things about being gay was that we could be open about who we are without the fear of judgment. But it just seems as if everyone is so concerned about what others think about them these days that they refuse to allow themselves to have any fun, or if they do, it has to be in secret. I see it everywhere. Guys refuse to send their G-rated face pics on Manhunt out of fear that they could end up in the wrong hands. (Just what kind of damage do these guys think that these so-called Internet predators can do with a fucking G-rated picture anyway???) Or they won't hook up with friends of mutual friends because they don't want their friends knowing who they sleep with. Honestly, who fucking cares?

Now I know that I live a very out-there lifestyle, and I understand that not everybody wants to be so open about themselves because it could get back to their families or their bosses. But really, people, this incessant paranoia that is running rampant in our community is fucking LAME. It's time for all of us to just get over ourselves already! I'm sorry, but it needs to be said: Discretion is for people who spend too much time worrying about what others think about them. And as I've said before, there is no greater deterrent to happiness than caring about what others think about you. But let's be totally honest: It's usually not our friends that are judging us. It's ourselves. And until we all come clean with ourselves about who we are and what we like to do in bed, then this kind of stupid "D.L." shit is going to continue. And again, I'm sorry, but there is absolutely nothing sexy about shame, guilt, fear or especially paranoia.

New XTube Video Posted: "Backseat Suck 'N' Fuck"

(NOTE: This video has now been made "private" upon the request of the other guy in the movie. He was recognized by a couple people and it made him uneasy, so if you want to see the video, email me for the PIN.)

So last summer I filmed this video of me sucking a hot muscle bear off in the backseat of his car while he was on his lunch break at work. He didn't want to leave work for too long, and obviously he couldn't host, so he told me to meet him in the parking lot of his workplace and we would just play in the back of his car. So I filmed the video and was all excited to post it, and then promptly lost the memory card that it was on. Well, the other day I came across that memory card, and the results of that decadent little backseat tryst are finally posted on XTube in my newest video, "Backseat Suck 'N' Fuck," a super-nasty little clip that shows me in my element: servicing a sweet cock.

There's actually an interesting story behind this guy. We actually started chatting online several years ago right after he moved here from the east coast. I'm not quite sure why I didn't jump at the chance to hook up with him back then, or vice versa, but for whatever reason we didn't get together. And then I didn't see him online for a while, and saw him out and about a few times here and there, and when I did test the waters a few times he seemed to be a little ambivalent about it all. I had all but given up on tasting his cock when one day I saw him on Grindr and decided to give it one last shot. This time he responded in kind, and we resumed our sex-soaked banter. It took us a couple weeks before we were finally able to seal the deal, but on this hot summer day, he was ready and able and invited me to join him in his car.

Now I'm no stranger to having sex in cars. In fact, the first time I ever had sex with another guy was in the front seat of my 1982 Ford EXP on a hot and sweaty summer night in Pennsylvania in 1987. That was with my neighbor Dave, and we became very familiar with the routine of unzipping and getting each other off in my car over the course of that cum-filled summer. So I have a particular nostalgic fondness for sucking dudes off in cars. But as you get older and your body fills out, the back seat isn't exactly the most comfortable place to have sex. You can't really stretch out unless it's a big truck or an SUV. And his was definitely not either of the two. But we made it work, as you will see.

The guy wasn't comfortable with having his face shown, but let me tell you, this is one hot muscle bear. He's got a sweet fat cock and a beautiful hairy body, not to mention a nasty bedside manner, so you know we were well matched. Anyway, we had so much fun that first time that we actually got together a second time and filmed a follow-up video, which I'll get posted on XTube... oh, sometime in the foreseeable future. I've got 20 videos in the pipeline right now to be edited and uploaded and I'm still only able to edit them when my friend who has a Mac lets me use his computer. So if anybody wants to contribute to the cause and help me get a new Mac, let me know. Until then, enjoy these super-hot still shots taken directly from the new video, and as always, stay tuned for more hot videos to CUM...

The art of accepting rejection

So the other day, I sent a text to one of the guys who came over and fucked me last week. I was all, like, "Man, that was so hot the other day, can't wait to do it again." At first he sent the usual fake response of a smiley face emoticon, but I could sense that there was something he wasn't saying. Me being me, I responded, "Well, gee, don't rush to give me such enthusiastic feedback!" He responded, "It was alright, but I don't feel compelled to come back for seconds. You know how it is. Happy hunting." I must admit, I was shocked. I had thought that our little tryst (in the tiny "alley" behind my apartment building at 6am in the morning, no less) was quite hot, and so I pressed for feedback. He resisted giving it to me until I said, "Well, I guess you don't care enough to be honest with me," at which point he shot back a pointed email telling me, among other things, that I was "thinner in [my] picture, hotter in [my] picture," and that my hole "wasn't as clean as it should have been." He then said, "I don't know why you would want that kind of feedback."

Of course, it was obvious this kid was pretty inexperienced in the ways of hooking up (he's just 24 years old) or that he doesn't know much about what goes into being a prepared bottom (after all, he messaged me on Grindr and said, "I want to play, but I'm on my way to work, so I have to come over right now if it's going to work," which didn't give me a lot of time to prepare to get fucked), and it was very obvious from his remarks about my appearance that he's pretty darn superficial, so I didn't take any of his feedback personally. I happen to know that I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I've got a little bit of a belly, I am bald... young shallow gay men typically resist such types of guys. So I get it. He's just 24 and superficial and I'm still hot. (It's interesting to note, however, that I was not thinner in the picture that I shared with him, and I told him so. I said, "That picture was taken one week ago. You saw what you wanted to see.")

Now I could have gotten all bent out of shape about what he said, but I had asked him for his feedback, and I'm glad to have gotten it. It was a little hurtful to read his words at first, but in the end I thanked him for his honesty and told him to "take care." Most people would want to curl up in a ball and cry themselves to sleep after hearing such harsh feedback, but I welcome it. I think if everyone were that honest with each other, the world would be a much better place. I mean, how does anybody expect to figure out what they are doing "wrong" if they don't get honest feedback from people who care enough about others to be honest with them? We don't have to agree with it (as I said, I happen to think I'm pretty darn hot, whether he thought so or not), but it's good to hear from others how we show up to them. What if everyone was brave enough to hear criticism and not take it personally? What would that be like, and how would people interact with each other in that kind of a world? I tend to think that we would have a lot more respect for each other if we were all honest with each other about our experiences of each other.

So this kid didn't think I was the hottest fuck he'd ever had. Oh well. That doesn't discount the experience I had with him. I still think it was very hot, and the video we shot is still one that I will want to look at and jerk off to in the future. I don't have to let his words bother me. In fact, I feel a little bit relieved now that I know the truth behind his vagueness. I hate thinking, "What did I do wrong?" It's good to know. I don't feel compelled to run to the gym and work out so I can be "hotter" to guys like him (heck, I don't even want to play with guys like him; shallow is not an attractive trait in anyone), but at least now I don't have to sit around wondering why he doesn't want to play again. It feels good to be informed. Call me crazy, but I think rejection can be a powerful tool of growth if you are confident enough in your own skin to hear it and take it in.

New XTube Video Posted: "Fucked by a Masked Man Part 2: Rover Fucks His Pup"

Hey there, folks. Sorry I've been away for so long. I had a lot going on the past week or so, and posting dirty new videos and blog entries just took a back seat to my life for a little bit. But I'm back now, and will be updating the blog with more tales of my sexcapades and more videos in the coming days and weeks. I've been filming an awful lot of new videos, so there are a bunch of hot new ones to be edited and posted. The only problem is that my Dell computer is pretty ancient and doesn't have the memory capacity to hold all the footage, so I've been using a friend's Mac to do all my editing, but I can only use it when he's out doing other things and not using it. Since he's out of school for the summer, he's pretty much always home, so all my videos are just waiting to get edited. (Any rich daddies wanna donate to the cause and help me get a new Mac? I'll suck yo' dick! LOL!) Anyway, for those who have been waiting patiently for part two of my "Fucked by a Masked Man Part 1" video, you're in luck. I've just posted "Part 2: Rover Fucks His Pup" to my XTube account today, so you can finally see how it all ends. (Gee, take a guess!)

The thing I love about playing with Rover is that he's such a verbal daddy, and his cock is just extraordinarily beautiful. The man just makes my mouth water, and my hole twitch, which is why I'm practically begging him to put his pole in my hole every time he comes over. (In fact, you'll hear me barking at him in the video. Watching it today, I think I might sound a little cheesy, but oh well, I kinda like that hot nasty porn talk, so what can you do?) The man just knows what I like. He hasn't been back over for a little while now, but I just texted him today and told him "Pup needs his daddy's cock bad!" so we'll see how he responds. I'm hoping to film an even nastier video with him next time around (his partner expressed interest in joining in for a hot threeway), so we'll see. In the meantime, enjoy the new video, and let me know what you think. And as always, stay tuned for more to CUM...

What I hate about gay men

You know what I hate about gay men? That they don't have a sense of respect for each other, especially when it comes to sex. Case in point: The other night I'm at one of the bars here in L.A., talking to this really hot guy. It's going well, I'm thinking there might be a possibility for some sparks here, and then, after striking out with a couple inside the bar, two "friends" of mine come walking over and essentially cock-blocked me bigtime by making the moves on my guy. Of course, the guy I was talking to ended up going home with them instead. What really fucking annoyed me about this was that it was a couple that did this. It's like, Wait a fucking minute! You guys are a couple! You already have someone to go home to! Fucking leave the single guys to the rest of us who don't have anyone! I mean, right?

Look, all is fair in love and war, but I don't believe that's the case when it comes to just getting off. When did it become OK for us to shit all over each other in the name of sex? It pisses me off that gay men are just takers, take-take-taking whatever they want without any regard for others. Straight men have a code of honor about this kind of thing: You don't go after a bro's girl. It's just not done. But in the gay community, that same honor code doesn't really exist. It's all, Hey, I'm horny, so fucking get out of my way! And I guess that's OK in the long run. I'm not going to let it bother me beyond this blog entry, but still, just to put this out there: If you don't respect your fellow gay men, then how in the hell do you expect anyone to respect you when you're the one trying to score?

New XTube Video Posted: "Fucked by a Masked Man Part 1: When Rover Came Over"

Well, folks, do I have a treat for you: an extra-hot new video that I call "Fucked by a Masked Man, Part 1." Yes, this video is so hot that I didn't want to cut out too much of it and didn't want the quality to be too shitty because it was too long, so I decided to cut it up into two parts so I could offer you more of what went down.

Part 1 is called "When Rover Came Over." Now I've been playing with Rover on and off for about a year and a half now. He has a longterm partner and a life, so you know, playing with him regularly is a bit tricky, but I'm telling you, when this guy comes over it's a major treat. He's a super-hot masculine daddy with an amazing cock, and the way he is so verbal with me whenever he comes over just turns me on to no end. He's versatile in his relationship but not with any of his "boys" on the side, so I don't get to fuck him (which, for the record, I would fucking LOVE to do... Hear that, Rover?), but it's hard to complain about such things when what does go on is so damned hot. Grrrr, just thinking about it again gets me all rock-hard in my pants.

Rover is also a bit on the nasty side, though he insists on wearing a condom. (OK, I could complain about that--you know how much I love having my hole filled up with man spunk--but I won't.) But even though we don't play raw, we do get to do a lot of other things that get me off. Like talking dirty and watersports. Yes, watersports. I get to drink some pee in this one, folks! Yay! This video is also notable for something else: It's the first one in which a guy wears a mask in the video so that he doesn't have to worry about people recognizing him. Rover was the one who suggested the mask, and I just happened to have a Mexican wrestling match lying around, so it worked out perfectly. I think you folks will agree when you watch the video that the chemistry between us is just awesome.

Anyway, I don't wanna go on too much about this one, because I think you just need to see it to get what I'm talking about, so head on over to my XTube profile page and check it out, or just click here. Remember to leave comments (though please, if you don't like the video, be nice about it), and stay tuned for Part 2: "Rover Fucks His Pup." And boy, does he! Woof woof woof!

A Bottom's Best Friend

So just before I left for my week-long trip up to Northern California, I received something very cool in the mail: my shower shot bidet! For anyone who knows the hassles of being a bottom, you will know exactly what I'm talking about when I say that a shower enema bidet is probably the greatest invention since... well, the sling. I had always thought that shower enemas were too expensive, and indeed, if you go into any adult novelty store they will likely be priced at about $65 to $75. But I decided to go onto the Internet and do a search, and sure enough, I came across a moderately priced one for only $35.95 at NewAdultToys.com. Oh, happy days!

Gone are the days of cleaning out for half an hour with a portable douche and thinking you are totally clean back there and then finding out when a guy pulls his dick out of your hole that all was not right in Assland. With the shower shot, everything is made easy. You use the portable douche to get all the major gook out, then you use the shower shot to make everything squeaky clean and date-ready. I will never again go out with that not-so-fresh feeling. I will be a confident bottom! (And while I'm at it, I also want to thank the makers of Viagra and Cialis for making me a confident top when I'm in that zone. Thanx, folks, you don't know what you've done for my piggy state of mind.)

Anyway, I'm not really trying to convince anyone to go out and buy this product, but since I believe that I should do my part to make the world a better place, you probably should buy one if you're a bottom and you like it a bit on the nasty side, like me. It'll change your whole world! It's the easiest and most reliable way to insure that "shit won't happen!" LOL! In fact, I love mine so much, I think I will have to make a little video about it. That'll definitely be something for you folks to stay tuned for, so, as always, stay tuned... :)

I'm baaaaack! (And I've got some new nude pics!)

Hey, folks, sorry for the disappearing act. I went up west to Oakland to hang out with my best friend and enjoy the lovely NoCal weather they were having up there. I went up last Monday and just got home late last night. I am just in love with Oakland. As much as I love San Francisco, there is just so much that Oakland has going for it that makes me want to move there one day instead of the city. First off, the rent is way cheaper; you can actually rent a nice-sized one bedroom apartment for under $1,000 in Oakland. Try doing that in San Francisco proper. Then you've got gorgeous Lake Merritt, which is pretty much the heart and soul of Oakland. And then, of course, there are the men. Oh, the men! Nothing like a hot furry and piggy NoCal man to get my juices flowing! In fact, while I was up north, I managed to hook up with three hot NoCal guys--and make three hot videos with them.

The first guy was this super-hot, furry-chested stud who lived very close to my friend. I was seeing a movie with my friend the night we hooked up, so I didn't have too much time, so this guy wasted no time at all getting me out of my clothes and into his sling. (Yup, folks, my first sling video! Awwwww!) The chemistry between us was hot as fuck, and he pounded the shit out of me before blowing a nice big load inside me. He even let me film his face during our encounter, which most guys do not. So can't wait to edit this video and get it posted.

The second guy also lived in Oakland, but I actually met up with him in San Francisco after the bars closed on Friday night. We initially met in this little alley way so that we could film a little public video, but as I was sucking his cock someone came peering out of their door and caught us in the act. So we drove back to his house and got down to business. This guy was a pretty handsome pig bear who really got into fucking me raw. He was really good at sliding his raw cock in and out real slow so that I could actually feel it sliding in and out. It was pretty darn hot. I'm going to have to do some creative editing with that video because the guy asked me to keep his face out of it, but I'll do my best with it.

The third guy I hooked up with was the hottest experience by far. He had a live-in boyfriend so he couldn't host, and since I was staying with my friend I couldn't host either, so at first I didn't think we were going to be able to meet up. But then I remembered that I had the key to my friend's laundry room, and since it was a Saturday afternoon there was no one in there doing their laundry, so I told the guy to meet me in the laundry room. He did, and boy, was it one helluva hot fuck. He was a totally hot stud with a beard, a belly and a nasty disposition. We were sweating up a storm in that laundry room as I sucked his cock then he fucked me and dumped his load in my ass. Luckily no one came into the room, and I picked up another NoCal fuck buddy! Can't wait to edit and post that video too! It's a hot one!

OK, well, that's it for the story of my recent disappearance. Today I hooked up again with the guy in the "Blowjob in the Backseat Video" that I have yet to post on XTube. I'm still waiting to hear back from them about why they removed my "A Hot Nasty Afternoon" video for copyright infringement (I obviously own all my videos), so I'm not sure when I'm going to post another video, but it will probably be very soon. I'll keep you posted. Until then, enjoy these new nude pics of myself that I took in my friend's bathroom while I was up north. I don't look all that bad with my clothes off after all, do I? LOL! Stay tuned...